惋惜的是，很多我亲爱的，都无法来。来的，多数是我传播系的朋友，之前的朋友，只来了一个。

难道，我这个朋友，已到了一个让人“遥不可及”的地位了吗？我的身份是否已成了一种“威胁”与“恐吓”呢？

我，是个很在乎朋友的人。
我，会被这种小事影响的。

~//~

回到首映会吧。

我听到的是，很多很多的“很好啊”。

这种意见固然好听，但感觉上没有批判的评语来的真诚。
或许是因为自己是个自虐的人，总是会觉得自己做得不够好，所以总希望朋友对我说出我不足的地方。
因为镜子，永远只能显示反过来的自己。

~//~

我很想感谢光正他们，因为他们相信我。他们真的很相信我。

我不知道怎么可以表达我对他们的万分谢意。24小时了，我还在想我应该SMS什么给他们。

~//~

那些来支持我的朋友。谢谢你。
因为……

你们让我哭了。

勇

Synopsis: 陌声, silent, explores the world of sounds through the life of a deaf girl.

Trailer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VUGaXzLli0o

Details of screening:
Date: 5th October 2007 (Friday)
Time: 7:30pm
Venue: *scape (opposite Cathay Cineleisure)
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因为他理智的心态
          连我抒发情感的空间也不存在。

因为我没有勇气
          命才会被运主宰。

刚刚躺在床上，努力试着睡时，突然觉得我找到了一个非常适合自己心情的一个比喻：我就像一支风筝。

前几天，有个朋友对我说了：“你这个人，前途已经是几乎写好了，就没有像普通人一样要忧虑未来。”我不由自主地发怒了。我好像从来没有提高声量骂过这位朋友（虽然有在他面前对“其他”人怒吼过），所以对自己来说，也在那刹那间顿住。

基本上，我不喜欢大家把我看作是一个“非普通”人。我的遭遇，真的只是因为自己的嘴巴太多，每次会引人注目，所以自己能做什么，大家都知道。

我觉得我自己身边，真的有更多更有才华的人，有更多“前途已定“的人。我真的好羡慕他们，而我的羡慕，是默默的，因为我知道自己的”羡慕“掺杂着”妒嫉“。

而我只是觉得我自己是一支风筝，因为大家都仿佛在看着我飞，在欣赏着我在飞，在赞叹我的”自由“翱翔。但我始终是被牵着线的，任由在地上的主人拉扯，任由风儿吹摆。也许线一断，我或许还能飞，但风一停，我也将落下。

那我想做什么？

我想变成气球，靠着自己超轻的重量，飞上天空。即使生命短暂，至少是靠自己的力量，绽放光彩。

鸟更好，想飞就飞，想落就落。

我现在要走的路，在新加坡只有少数人走过，成功更加少。而我清楚知道，很多时候我靠的是别人的介绍与推荐的。我好像几乎从来没真正去为自己打造未来。我这风筝，还能飞多久？

06/07结束了。我开心。但07/08的开始，让我沮丧。我能否真正为自己打造未来，还是就打算在光碟店里，在别人的鼻子下，度过一生？

*突然感情用事*,
yong

刚刚躺在床上，努力试着睡时，突然觉得我找到了一个非常适合自己心情的一个比喻：我就像一支风筝。

前几天，有个朋友对我说了：“你这个人，前途已经是几乎写好了，就没有像普通人一样要忧虑未来。”我不由自主地发怒了。我好像从来没有提高声量骂过这位朋友（虽然有在他面前对“其他”人怒吼过），所以对自己来说，也在那刹那间顿住。

基本上，我不喜欢大家把我看作是一个“非普通”人。我的遭遇，真的只是因为自己的嘴巴太多，每次会引人注目，所以自己能做什么，大家都知道。

我觉得我自己身边，真的有更多更有才华的人，有更多“前途已定“的人。我真的好羡慕他们，而我的羡慕，是默默的，因为我知道自己的”羡慕“掺杂着”妒嫉“。

而我只是觉得我自己是一支风筝，因为大家都仿佛在看着我飞，在欣赏着我在飞，在赞叹我的”自由“翱翔。但我始终是被牵着线的，任由在地上的主人拉扯，任由风儿吹摆。也许线一断，我或许还能飞，但风一停，我也将落下。

那我想做什么？

我想变成气球，靠着自己超轻的重量，飞上天空。即使生命短暂，至少是靠自己的力量，绽放光彩。

鸟更好，想飞就飞，想落就落。

我现在要走的路，在新加坡只有少数人走过，成功更加少。而我清楚知道，很多时候我靠的是别人的介绍与推荐的。我好像几乎从来没真正去为自己打造未来。我这风筝，还能飞多久？

06/07结束了。我开心。但07/08的开始，让我沮丧。我能否真正为自己打造未来，还是就打算在光碟店里，在别人的鼻子下，度过一生？

*突然感情用事*,
yong

28th June 2007
to
8th July 2007
I have decided to give myself a break and go on a hiatus.

Please do not try to call me, you can leave an sms but i cannot guarantee you i’ll be replying them. You can also reach me via email at jumbosale@innocent.com, but again i cannot guarantee replies too.

Why such drastic actions? ‘Cos i’ve been living my life like it’s others and i’m going live my own life for myself for just 11 days. Happy? If not, heck, I don’t give a damn.

Wahahahahahahaha~

*going-ga-ga*,
Ah Yong

I’m eavesdropping on a conversation, not that I’m TRYING to eavesdrop, just that it’s really happening outside my window anyway.

My neighbour’s son (whom I’ve never seen in my life since they moved in) apparently invited his whole gang over to celebrate someone’s birthday.

And they created a hell of a noise.

My wall has become a bass drum that was constantly beating to some Hindi music apparently… And, as expected, the police came. Thank goodness.

And now? My neighbour is trying to talk himself (and his gang) out of this situation, claiming they have total rights as a Singaporean to do whatever he (or rather, they) wants.

And the guy wanted to give in by saying “ok ok, fine, we all go to sleep and keep quiet and we all make love and peace ok”, then he and his gang of friends will erupt into great bursts of laughter right in front of the police. *roll eyes* either they’re dumb or… they’re dumb.

This is the second time the police came around. Or rather… from the conversation, the police apparently has been waiting downstairs and overheard noise coming back out of the house and came back up to get the gang to the police station.

What pure dramatic noise.

And all this noise is keeping me up…

Thanks for the belated birthday gift, neighbours (whom I’ve never met and talked to).

*i-hate-it-when-i-have-bad-neighbours*,
Ah Yong

Yeokie @ 10:31pm:
happy birthday!! in 2 hours time!

斯鏗~ @ 12:00mn:
happy 23rd bdae~ whee

婉晶* @ 12:02am:
恭喜老人又成功的老了一歳 =D

Using SMS:

Kairu @ 12:01am:
happy bithday johnson!! surprised i know ur birthday right! heh enjoy this special day of urs! :D

Shi Si @ 12:15am:
Hey, happy bdae! [...] Hope that you will have a great bdae this yr [...] ;-p btw, i got u a bdae present! Hope u’ll like it.

Minwei @ 01:30am:
I hope i didn’t rmb wrongly but its ur bday right? happy 23rd bday! may u gain more weight n look better this year! haha… n pls jia you with what u r doing right now. it will be e best bday gift for urself. like sk n e rest of them, im behind u k =)

Yanhui @ 01:53am:
Happy birthday!

Ailing @ 02:34am:
Happy birthday big boss! May all your wishes come true and happy days for e rest of e yr!

Zhuo Min @ 09:53am:
Yo Happy birthday!

Rongjun @ 12:14pm:
Happy birthday dude.. Work hard in theatre and dont steal my rice bowl in sound design. Thank you.

Xiuwen @ 01:41pm:
Go get drunk and establish yourself as a twenty three year old. Lol. happy birthday.

Called Me:

Meijun @ 12:04am:
我(也是)要去睡了，可是特別打電話想說: Happy Birthday!

Left a friendster message:

Keith (SAFBand) @ 04:46am:
yo~ happy b’day~ ur vcds still with me…

Yeokie @ 10:31pm:
happy birthday!! in 2 hours time!

斯鏗~ @ 12:00mn:
happy 23rd bdae~ whee

婉晶* @ 12:02am:
恭喜老人又成功的老了一歳 =D

Using SMS:

Kairu @ 12:01am:
happy bithday johnson!! surprised i know ur birthday right! heh enjoy this special day of urs! :D

Shi Si @ 12:15am:
Hey, happy bdae! [...] Hope that you will have a great bdae this yr [...] ;-p btw, i got u a bdae present! Hope u’ll like it.

Minwei @ 01:30am:
I hope i didn’t rmb wrongly but its ur bday right? happy 23rd bday! may u gain more weight n look better this year! haha… n pls jia you with what u r doing right now. it will be e best bday gift for urself. like sk n e rest of them, im behind u k =)

Yanhui @ 01:53am:
Happy birthday!

Ailing @ 02:34am:
Happy birthday big boss! May all your wishes come true and happy days for e rest of e yr!

Zhuo Min @ 09:53am:
Yo Happy birthday!

Rongjun @ 12:14pm:
Happy birthday dude.. Work hard in theatre and dont steal my rice bowl in sound design. Thank you.

Xiuwen @ 01:41pm:
Go get drunk and establish yourself as a twenty three year old. Lol. happy birthday.

Called Me:

Meijun @ 12:04am:
我(也是)要去睡了，可是特別打電話想說: Happy Birthday!

Left a friendster message:

Keith (SAFBand) @ 04:46am:
yo~ happy b’day~ ur vcds still with me…